A Movie Night

Just got through watching this movie and I must say it was freaking crazy, I still am in shock. Have you seen it and what do you think?

A Change in the Air

Been awhile since I blogged and I really was just being lazy. lol After the move I think I wore myself completely out cause that whole wkend I was so weak and just did not want to do anything except sleep or stay inside and that's just not me. I have mostly everything put up and house is really nice and I love how it looks inside and out. The only problem is that I always get this real errie feeling like something is watching me it's really weird cause Jose has been feeling it too. It's when you climb up the stairs it's just like something is behind you or something. Idk....I really don't get to much into ghost but Jose belives in them 100% and says we need to bless the house soon. Kinda scary Anyways the place used to old doctors offices back in the day so...weird a co-worker told me that and I wish she wouldn't have. I guess I really don't worry about ghost and all that cause my main faith is in god and that is it. but anyways everything else has been good Jose got his first pay check from his new job and we were happy with it. His job is turning out to be good and he likes what he does and the people he works with and I couldn't be more happier for him. It's hard to find a good job and good people to work with, so good for him. Since the recent lost of a friend and Peixin going home I must say it has made me feel pretty lonely. I almost went to see my mom this past wkend but I'm still just not that exicted about it and scared I don't want it to be like before when I was always getting my feelings hurt. So it just kinda leaves me lost on what to do. I've kinda thrown myself out there more and made friends with a couple of new people some from the past that I reconnected with and some new ones. None of which haven't really hit home as far as a bestie goes lol but ya know they are pretty cool. The thing about all of it is you know they invite us over for dinner and idk I guess I'm just boring or antisocial but I just don't want to so that lol I mean it's always a bit akward for me tryin to make convo and sometimes I just get really embarrased, idk lol  I like hanging out with people I already feel comfortable with cause I know them...yeah I know I need to get over it if I want to meet new friends lol This wkend we both had a good time with Joses sister and it helped me to get together. We will never be tight like some sister in laws are but whatever shes cool sometimes.  We also had some disturbing news about Jose's mom, she has been on dialysis for almost one year and things are not getting better. From what I understand the medicines are now eating up her insides, the doctors have explained their concern and let us know we should now spend as much time as we possibly can with her. I am really scared for Jose because out of all the brothers and sister he has him and his mom are the closest, he is the baby and his mom just babys him like nobody buisness lol. It really breaks my heart for my husband because I know how much he loves his momma and for the whole family as well. It is going to be really hard for them and for even me because she was a great woman. Nothing is really new at work really it's been pretty slow and stuff but it's nice cause I just surf the internet all day=)....I take full advantage while I can lol I still haven't found any hobbies yet lol Me and Nathan went into the craft store this weekend to look around and idk what I want to do....lol just kinda left me more confused. I really didn't want to do any of it I am not interested in anything anymore. lol What is wrong with me the only thing I did end up enjoying all wkend was Donkey Kong lol Me and Nathan beat it all the way to world 3. lol Video Games wtf is wrong with me. lol ugh anyways I have been really interested with finda paintings, drawlings, or pictures people take. idk what I could do with that but I have been printing them off and keeping them in a little binder maybe to trace out or something..?? who knows. A pretty good friend of mine is opening up a business pretty soon (Hopefully) on doing birthday parties and she told me she could use the help and she would pay me so that could be a little fun and make a little money on the side. Kinda more her idea than mine but ya know these days I am just searching for something to do, wow I sound like a loser. lol I need a baby =( cept nothing has really happened on that...I haven't went to the doctor and I haven't really been keeping up with anything. Kinda sounds like I am being lazy don't it. huh, maybe I am just being really lazy. I do tend to be lazy lol for longer than I should, but you know this is the first time that things have been peacefully weird and it's kinda nice to be lazy. I think my life is alot different than most friends of mine probably would explain the whole feeling of feeling like we were on completely different pages all the time. Whatever it was or is I am so happy for Jose because I love him lots and he is my homie, lover and friend. Yeah we fight but we love just as hard and no matter what, we are going to be there for each other through thick and then.

Missing You

Today I am so sad because Peixin went home....I know everything is going to be okay and she will be back next year but it was so heart breaking to see her go. I just miss her that is it. It is so sad that when I ride to work in the morning by myself and it is so sad to not see her in her room. Her stuff is all gone from her room and it looks so bare and empty. I miss her. She was my responsiblility and I had to cook and clean for her and when I was upset or sad I made myself be happy around her so she wouldn't know and now it just feels like I have nothing to do. I don't have alot of people so the ones I do have I just hold onto so much and it just breaks my heart that she had to leave. This next year is going to be all about her and I don't give a crap if I spoil her to much or give her way too much time it's the last year I am going to have with her and I am going to make it the best! I didn't relize how much I loved her until she left on that plane. When we got into town from dropping her off I got me a pizza and box of chocolates and went straight home turned the air down put some jammies on and ate them in bed and watched Harry Potter, I am such a drama queen lol....I really needed to be up getting ready for the move but I just didnt have it in me.....Jose just let me chill and from the look on his face it was just the way he was feeling too........It's a sad time in the our House I'm glad for the move that place just isn't the same.....

Losing a Friend and 5th Day of Gratitude

Today I am thankful for friendship, it's a wonderful thing to have.....

A Reminder

Losing a friend is indeed something you will never desire. But the best thing is to carry on with your life and make newer friends. This is because life may take away something but it does give you something else in return. So, have patience and wait for better times to come. You may again find good friends who are likely to understand you much better than perhaps your old friends have ever done.

Me:

I lost a friend today over well, I don't know that I understand why but something just tells me that it was meant to be. I am still pretty upset and feeling a bit blue. I hate losing people. Once you are in my heart that person will always be there no matter even if they have stabbed it, that's just who I am. I really don't have much to blog about on this I just needed to tell what happened today thats it.....

This week it nothing but getting ready to move. I should be moving this wkend! Ready for the change hopeing this is a good move and no more problems. I am very very very tired of renting. The day I stop renting I am going to celebrate BIG! Started my period NOT pregant! Big suprise...NOT! Looks like it is back to marking the calendar and making doctor visits..yippee. Peixin is leaving this Thursday and not coming back till next school year...I'm just losing all my love...=( tear lol I'm still battling the red kool-aid stain in the room and I am praying with a friends steam cleaner I can get it up tonight! I bought me some really cute sandals this wkend at Ross and Shoe Carnival I'll post pics of them but I am getting ready for capris and painted toes...Really ready to go get my feet done =) I had a great lunch with friends this wkend it was so relaxing and just cool. I can always be myself around those girls and just relax. They are always honest no matter what and can make me laugh. The food was great and the margarita was better! It was just what I needed and I hope we can have many many more dates together. I am sure with the new status of me a certain person I can look forward to get my feelings hurt when it comes to lunch dates with the girls...=(  But life goes on and I just need to stay positve and keep going. Tommorrow is a new day!

4th Day of Gratitude

Today I am thankful for the weekends.......

I love friday night because that means no cooking for me!! We hardly ever do anything on friday night except order in and watch movies, play the wii or we might play a bored game but rarely.  I love it cause everyone takes a bath and we all get in our jammies and snuggle on the couch....Saturday mornings I love waking up to my hubby and just laying in bed that extra hour or so with him. I love how cold it is in the mornings and how my sheets and pillows feel. I am always in an extra sweet mood knowing I don't have anywhere to be!! I always get up and make coffee and Nathan will wake up not long after I do and turns the TV on for catroons or to play the wii. I usally try and keep it as quiet as possible cause I love it...There is something wonderful knowing the people you love are safe and asleep in their beds.  I always start a load of laundry and drink my coffee while Nathan watches his cartoons or plays the wii. Jose will usually get up and come sit with me and talk over coffee and then about 30 min or so here comes Peixin looking for coffee lol She usually joins in on the conversation with questions out the wazoo lol I hardly cook on the weekends or try to cook very little just cause I cook supper every night during the week so it's my break....We usally eat something easy like pancakes,waffles, eggs, or coffee bread in the am. Sometimes I run to McDonalds and great breakfast bisquits to eat. When we get motivated or when the coffee pot is empty lol we get dressed and leave to pay bills and gro shop. I usally drop Peixin off at the mall while we run around. Most of the time I really hate this part of the day cause of the traffic and running in and out of everywhere but it has to be done...and with me getting of everyday at 5 I only have one day to do everything. We finally make it home and I usually start cooking and cleaning the house a bit. It's just so relaxing being able to be with my family all day and taking care of them. I love it. Sundays are usually spent visiting and cleaning  Jose's mom house or taking a little ride for a picnic or just being lazy around the house. If we need to mow or clean the cars we usually do it on Sundays. I always try and make a big supper and attend Church but it doesn't happen as often as is should. However I love my wkends as boring and as old as I sound. I like being home and keeping my house clean and smelling good and taking care of my family.

Day 3 of Gratitude-Plus A Few New Pieces of Me

Today I am thankful for my Job and my husbands Job. There are alot of people right now that are still struggling to find a job. I am happy that we both have one to go to in the morning. Although I do wish the people I worked with were a bit nicer I manange to come every week for that pay check.

I took a test last night and it did come out negative which suprised me because I still am not on my period and today would make me exactly 5 days late which is unusal for me. I'm still hoping the test came out wrong....and I am still under direct order not to be moving anything while I am packing and moving during this week and next. We have one more week until we get into our new place and I have to say I am really ready at first I was so sad but these past couple of nights I have not been sleeping good in our room and just ready to be some place new. I think I am going to enjoy the convience care free living of apt living. The new place does have an upstairs which will take some getting used to but it does have two bathrooms that I am so happy to have one in my bedroom. Me and Hubs room have a really nice balconey with a sliding door in our room which will be nice for us. I like the idea of going upstairs to get away when I need to....the only thing that really bothers me ALOT is fire! We  had a house fire and I was scared so much from it I refused to ever live in an upstairs but when it came around I really didn't have much choice.So looks like I gotta get rid of my fear.... Moving is probably going to be simple because we are throwing away most stuff and taking nothing. This next school year I am going to dig into redorating my house and all my hand me down furniture is getting tossed now. We might be sitting on table chairs for awhile but in time its gonna look great. I already have the ideas that I want for each room and the colors! For me there is nothing better than my house. I make it the way I want it for me to feel comfortable cause when I come home from work I want to come home and relax in a nice house. There is nothing better.....Peixin is going to be leaving next week and me and jose are taking off of work to drive her to the Houston Airport. Jose has really gotten attached to Peixin and doesn't want her to go. I think he is going to miss her alot. He asked me this morning how I felt about it and if I was going to be okay and by looking at his face I kinda knew he was talking about himself lol. It's going to be alittle depressing cause it's going to be lonely and quite with her gone. But I told him we really needed the break after such a ruff 1/2 of a year and with him working at a good job now I can really use this summer to relax and recharge the batteries. I have SO many projects that I never got around to doing to keep me busy this summer and with work being slow durning these months its really my time that I can do alot around the house. I have some art work that I really want to get up in my room or something and I really dont know how I am going to do that just yet and I really have some blankets that I want to sew together for Nathan and Jose so we will see. I also have a random list of DVD's and VHS ( yes I still love VHS) and books that I want to get from Amazon that I never got so I can make a personal little library for myself! I mean that is just some of the things I want to do for myself this summer and they are simple things that would just make my life nice I think. I have also found some really interesting blogs on here but most I already notice say they put it on priviate because sometimes people leave rude comments I guess. I was thinking maybe I would not make mine private so I can maybe meet some other ladies like me out there but I really don't want to deal with the hassle of rude comments and stupid people. However I was able to add a couple of pages that I thought for me was really interesting. I added two Italian ladies that post a new authentic dish everyday. I have to translate the recipes but the picutres are amazing and I love all the different varities of coffee breads, cookies and desserts. I really can't wait to be in the new place cause I'm gonna get down with it in the kitchen.  I think it would give me peace inside to know something about where my roots are, even though I am half and we are Italian American lol Another page I found was a lady who draws these wonderful drawlings of Sci-fi animations. Although I am really not into that kind of thing I love the art, the colors and all she has done and I praise anyone for doing what they love. I also came across unique photography and so much more things.