I Think It's Finally Gonna Happen

It been awhile since I posted but it has been pretty normal since my last post nothing to major to report as far as breaking news which is good. Things have progressed in the baby making because I officially took control of my infertility (as my BFF would put it) LOL and got myself on Clomid. If everything goes okay and it does what it is supposed to I should be pregant within the 3-4 mths range but there is always an "if" in anything so "if" it doesn't work then we should move up to a higher dose and try that. Of course I am hoping that that won't be the case but I am trying to stay positive. Key word is '"try" nobody said I would LOL I've pretty much picked back up on my smoking which is a shame cause I pretty much had that habit bet and I think I just got bored...That sounds crazy I know but it is SO true! Which pretty much I just screwed myself cause if I do get pregant I'm just going to have to stop again...no sence but that is pretty much me!! Right? lol I am going to start a little email address for the baby and send her pictures and messages kinda like a diary of everything we are doing to get ready for her/him, oh yeah and  it's gonna be a girl?!! I'm jk if it's healthy than I don't care it could be a green kid and I wouldn't care it would be mine! Clomid is making me feel weird with hot flashes that I was pre-warned about and then it's backed with some heavy emotions. So far I just feel like a wreck, unorganized and just need a little bit more quiet time. Everything just gets so hectic with work and Peixin and errans two day weekends are not enough. Before Peixin got here I was feeling really great I had all my ducks in a row and was enjoyin some down time and then all of a sudden that all went out the door. It's just one of those things I guess. I really just need to remind myself that the weekends need to be used for rest instead of running running running and use the week day for that. Anyways, I'm making myself tired talking about it. As far as the family goes, hubby is doing good. We just added a new car to the family is Nissian Versa!! He finally got rid of the buick and I was so happy cause now I don't feel bad about him driving the car I wrecked. So he is enjoying have a new car to and it looks good with him. The hubbys birthday was this weekends and he is SPOLIED and defently agrees we need a child because I bought cookie monster wrapping paper for his presents and I GUESS treated him like a child but whatever I got him a BIG pen to wear on his shirt that said BIRTHDAY BOY hehehe and a couple of other lil things and he got his underwear all in a twist, I thought it was funny. But I got him some shoes, clothes and two lowrider hats that he has been wanting ever since I can remember. He is right I do need a kid cause I am going to have SOO much fun!! Peixin has been alot more mature this year than last and has also been on her A game when it comes to school and applying to college. We actually have been able to spend some alone time just us girls this year and its been alot better. I have no clue where the time went last year when she was stayin with us but I didnt get anything that I had planned for us done. I regret alot of it becaue I only have one more school year with her and then thats it...she has mentioned staying another 2 years if she goes to a junior college but I don't see that happening, of course she is more than welcome but I know she will get into a great University. And the thought of her leaving forever just breaks a piece of my heart alittle. As far as hosting again I don't see it happening but I hope the oppurtunity comes back around in the future cause I really enjoy it. Nathan has started 2nd grade and it just full full full of energy and learning new things. Sometimes it suprises me on how much he actually does know and how much he has grown. We have had some behavor problems as far as lieing and not turning in his homework but for the most part, he is a really good kid. As far as work is going, we are getting ready for another busy season. alice is out for a month cause her husband is having back surgery so I am doing her work plus mine right now and its been tricky. I've had complaments and some nasty remarks which have pissed me off but I knew that was going to happen its normal so I just try and suck it up and not take it personal. However my boss did go a little far this morning and send everyone an email with my mistake and asked "what would you go if you saw this"....and of course the bitches all responded with their way of how they would handle it...UGH annoying! that kinda pissed me off but it was petty and I wasn't going to let it get to me. However, i did respond to my boss to let her know how it makes people feel when she does that...just because nobody likes that and she called it a way for us to learn but I don't think they should single out just one person like that and put them on blast to the whole office. Cause in this office EVERYONE makes mistakes and we all fix each others. It's just how we roll lol jk we aint cool like that but in a dream world we would all love each other and fix each others problems when we see it instead of sending emails and blind coping it to everybody LOL yes, they really do that!! That is such a waste of time I hate sending emails on every little thing its annoying, now some people just can't seem to get enough. On a happy note I have been learning alot and actually I have been giving myself lil pats on the back cause I know I'm doing a good job! I treat people really good and answer their questions and if I can't make sure I find someone who can. We have come up with a name for a girl and a boy. For a girl Jaedyn Renee and for a boy Noah...