Missing You

Today I am so sad because Peixin went home....I know everything is going to be okay and she will be back next year but it was so heart breaking to see her go. I just miss her that is it. It is so sad that when I ride to work in the morning by myself and it is so sad to not see her in her room. Her stuff is all gone from her room and it looks so bare and empty. I miss her. She was my responsiblility and I had to cook and clean for her and when I was upset or sad I made myself be happy around her so she wouldn't know and now it just feels like I have nothing to do. I don't have alot of people so the ones I do have I just hold onto so much and it just breaks my heart that she had to leave. This next year is going to be all about her and I don't give a crap if I spoil her to much or give her way too much time it's the last year I am going to have with her and I am going to make it the best! I didn't relize how much I loved her until she left on that plane. When we got into town from dropping her off I got me a pizza and box of chocolates and went straight home turned the air down put some jammies on and ate them in bed and watched Harry Potter, I am such a drama queen lol....I really needed to be up getting ready for the move but I just didnt have it in me.....Jose just let me chill and from the look on his face it was just the way he was feeling too........It's a sad time in the our House I'm glad for the move that place just isn't the same.....