Not A Good Choice

So I'm pretty much passed pissed I'm just plain angry! Over the passed months all of our 2's have announced their retirement. Neatless to say that is bascially saying here is a promotion to all of the 1's next in line which would include ME! Today the new lady that has been here a little over a month is now training for what I thought was going to be my new job with the great pay raise that I really need. YES!!! Because she has prior experience and has age over me. So as of now all my friends the 1's will be moving to their new offices with their great pay raises while I stay behind training the new 1's for the upcoming busy season. Swollow another blow below the knees Natalie. Suck it up and move on....yeah right!!! HA suck it up until when? Once they get in those position ain't nobody going no where. I will be a 1 for the next 20 years until one of them decides to retire. I feel so betrayed how can they do that? I'm next in line and I have shown enough responsiblity for that job. Honestly when I saw that other girl training I cried, but I don't want them to see me upset so i snapped out of it. I just don't know how I am going to suck it up it's almost unbearable. I'm not that strong. Then I thought well I can ask one of the 2's to train me in secret and prove myself at least give her some competition. When I asked the lady said she would but she doesn't have the authority to take me from my work and just train me. I would have to ask one of the bosses. Thing is is that the new lady has now become friends with the suck ups and the bosses always take their sides. So I'm not sure if I do go in there if they will shrug me off and if I really try my hardest it will be for nothing and leave me more upset than now. And I don't want to battle I'm gonna have to kiss major ass and the thought of it just makes me sick to my stomach. I don't feel like doing any more work for these people anymore. She doesn't deserve that job, I do. Is it time for a job change? What hell am I going to do? With the economy the way it is I am so scared to leave A&M but damn they are always doing people so wrong. I feel like if I just bend over and take it then I am so weak and they are gonna run over me forever and if I feel that if I fight I am going to lose cause I know how they are. I know this upcoming busy season I am going to be swamped with SO much work and they are gonna dump all the load on me. Life is so unfair sometimes...It's times like these that I wish I had a parent I could talk to to guide me in the right direction cause I honestly don't know what to do. Ugh I don't want to watch this lady move to what was supposed to be my desk and have to work under her calculating her GPA's oh gosh please give me a break!!! Just one little break.Did I mention life sucks?